i promised my wife that i would requst to see the mental doc, that i was starting get out of hand at times, dreams, night sweats are gettin real bad. couple days back, i found myself in the backyard, gun in hand, scared the hell outta wife now. thinkin about moving my guns, least a few anyway.
21 yrs. ago, was a soldier who did his job, never questioned any orders..now..fast forward 21 yrs., still a soldier at heart as we all are, but have to make pain meds everyday just to sota function without pain, an takes everything i got at times to remember what i was thinkin in my head to say., have to keep a pocket notebook with me, so i can remember what im supposed to do....
i ramblin, sorry, this took around 30 mins to write, ....guessin im sayin that this stuff startin to scare me a lil, im prob just over thinkin, but, i'll be 42 in august....an messed up to the point that doc told me my body was in the shape of a 70 yr. old.
, an now this....
so again for ramblin....
edit: look over the mispellin plz, i can't type as fast as im thinkin....

