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fifteen years later /starting over with VA

Posted: Thu Jul 09, 2009 4:17 pm
by smitty1
After DS made claims on sore joints,stomach probs,headaches,ect was made to feel like i was lying so I naturally did not want anything to do with VA. tried to self medicate and that was a dark period. fifteen years later I am trying to open my case with new evidence (just got started ) already can tell little has changed. i hate to hear so many of my brothers are suffering as I .It seems no matter what branch or MOS or location we all have the simular stories of life since (over there).I had little time to decompress after i got back since I was NG I went on with the business of Living ,working Marriage and kids had no time to think of myself. The pain and worry that I have passed on somrthing to my wife or kids is terrible.I feel that The VA isnt on my side in fact maybe their job is to prove that it is all in my head,Hoping for the best expecting the worst. ADAPT AND OVERCOME. We are all on the same team thank you for your sacrifice .we have to appreciate each other ,it seems no one else does. SMITTY

Re: fifteen years later /starting over with VA

Posted: Thu Jul 09, 2009 8:51 pm
by FA1SGret
To each other! I especially admire the folks who are dealing with this shit and maintaining their employment.

I baiscally gave up trying to be a part of anything except my immediate family and surroundings.

I've been trying to shake things back together, but they just don't seem to want to go back together.

To the Veterans!

Re: fifteen years later /starting over with VA

Posted: Fri Jul 10, 2009 7:51 am
by Redmaxx
FA1SGret wrote:To each other! I especially admire the folks who are dealing with this shit and maintaining their employment.

I baiscally gave up trying to be a part of anything except my immediate family and surroundings.

I've been trying to shake things back together, but they just don't seem to want to go back together.

To the Veterans!
Although we only interact and know each other through this message board, just remember you are not alone. We will always be there for you, we are after all a family.

Re: fifteen years later /starting over with VA

Posted: Fri Jul 10, 2009 8:19 am
by FA1SGret
You are correct. This board is one of the few places that I interact well. Thanks.

Re: fifteen years later /starting over with VA

Posted: Sat Jul 11, 2009 3:39 pm
by Rickey Nelson
no one can relate to your problems more than someone who has been there. Just like when they said no chemical where used and a couple yrs. later I get a certified letter stating I was in the vicinity where chemical's where discovered.... Much less the Antratax shots we took that where not USFDA approved... Man that was one bad shot..

Re: fifteen years later /starting over with VA

Posted: Fri Feb 05, 2010 2:47 pm
by darclegion2
Been thru 2 marriages, self medicated with so many drugs trying to feel normal. I lost my soul in combat, I wish I never would have left the battlefield...cause Im still there. And somehow I maintained my job, and kept on marching...cause I was and still am a tough Marine.
But my life was hell after wards for awhile...I was sick and didnt know it....so life kinda took turns like...
Wrecking 3 corvettes, 2 dwi, and this is while I was getting help with my PTSD from a civilian doctor,, suicide was always a thought, alcholic and drugs ruled my life for awhile, then I went to the VA, and finally I got the help I needed, but it was a very rough journey getting there. That was 13 years ago....but its still not easy....and Im not talking bad dreams of war, none of that illusional bs, just plain ass, depressed, feel like a empty shell, forgotten, longing to be a soldier again, hating the enemy....and hating the fact that I will die an old man, and not on the field of battle. Your normal stuff.
I get so depressed, and I have no idea why....and not a day goes by that I dont think of those days....especially now...since my Son is over there in my place finishing up the job.
I just cant forget those days...
And I really appreciate Obama for "NOT FREEZING spending to the VA" how nice of him to think of us disabled vets out there.

And I was feeling low as hell, and I accidently found this site, and now Im feeling much better. Today is a down day, but I have lots of good days.

So if your sick,....go to the VA...screw the Civilian doctors...they have no clue about war

Re: fifteen years later /starting over with VA

Posted: Mon Feb 08, 2010 8:31 am
by redfish
darc, Welcome home. My story is very similar to yours. You can read it over in a different area of this site. I drank heavily after we got back, DUI's jail, detox 2 marriages. Then I starting working 100 hours a week and life went on. Last year it all dropped back into my lap with a vengence. 3 different meds, 1 melt down and 3 months of group therapy here I am. I am only half way thru group. VA is a whole different atmosphere in ashville. Atlanta sucked as did some others but I am getting the care I need now.